Accountability

Tonight after Bible study (which was awesome for me for the first time in a long time) Toby and I sat down and talked about our intimacy issue (we get a little too lovey dovey hubby wifey, especially right now because I'm staying with his family until I can find a job and another apartment). We committed to some pretty strict standards with a VERY harsh consequence (no kisses, not even a peck) if we slip up AT ALL. We realize that even though we didn't ask for the circumstances we're in directly (I didn't quit my job when he was changing his, I got fired) we need to work through the challenge set before us. I'm actively looking for a job, ANY job, and either he or I (him if he finds a roommate before I find a job and vice versa) will be moving into an apartment, with again, very strict standards and rules. Neither of us wants to lose the privillage of being able to kiss each other, but if that's what it takes then that is what it takes. We're going to call Mike and Deanna and ask them to hold us accountable for this commitment ASAP, but I would like those of you who read this to hold us accountable as well in confidence. I know we can do this and will do this... We have the rest of our lives to be together...

Katie, Cake, and Carmel Apple Pops...

Today was awesome... I hung out with one of my bridesmaids, Katie, who is quickly becoming one of my closest friends, this morning. We went out for lunch and chitchat. She's so great (I know you're probably reading this, but I don't care :-P), one of those friends who always knows what to say and remembers/thinks of things that are perfect for the moment. When we were eating, we were talking about when we first met (planning Toby's birthday party). She came with me on a whim to pick up supplies at WalMart with Mark and Adam Healton (LoL). We found out that we have tons of random stuff in common! Anyways, while we were shopping, I insisted on buying a big bag of Carmel Apple Lollipops and told her about when Toby and I first met. He was 14 and I was 16(ish) when we met at Quaker Meadow camp. He developed a little crush on me over the course of the week and on the second to last day we were there he bought me a whole box of Carmel Apple Pops (which were one of my favorites) to "share with the girls" (including my maid of honor, Grace). To date one of the sweetest thing ever done for me :). Katie remembered this little story today while we were having lunch and said that we should have Carmel Apple Pops on all of the tables and that Grace could share this story in her toast (with which we'll raise the Pops to instead of champange - dry wedding and all). Now how perfectly cute is that?!? I would have never thought to do something like that in a million years! We also went to Ettore's bakery to try a slice of Green Marzipan covered Princess Torte (by far the best cake I've ever tasted) and to get a business card to schedule a cake tasting. I told her I'm giving Toby most of the reigns on cake flavor (I've already picked the design) but we decided that even if he doesn't pick Princess Torte for the wedding cake (or even go with Ettore's - muy expensivo) we'll order the Green Marzipan round for the bridal shower (It's a perfect polka dot!). Mmmm... cake...

Finally

We have an official date, July 15, 2007. We booked the Croation American Cultural Center this morning... Sucess! Now I can really get the ball rolling... My next step is choosing the Save-the- Dates and getting my mailing list together to get them sent out...

P.S.

At the moment I would rather plan my wedding then level my Shaman... :)

Rollin...

Okay, the ball that I thought had compleatly stopped is now on the roll again... We are finally going to book our place on Wednesday! My parents came up on Saturday and we went rafting on Sunday down the American River... Nice and relaxing... After a "future in-law" BBQ we decided to meet with the owner of the Croation American Cultural Center (no, neither of us are in the least bit Croation)... Since all of the Saturdays for the entirety of next summer are already booked, we decided there was nothing stopping us from having the wedding in July... We are going for July 15 or 22 (both Sundays) in the evening... Should be nice... I'm all excited again! Went and bought 2 more magazines that I've been wanting for a while... I have my place, my officiant, a good portion of my guest list written and approved by mom, my bridesmaids dresses roughly picked out, and a cake design, even the menu is roughly decided on... My cousin is getting married in November and his fiance was surprised at how much I've decided and planned already... I'm an impulsive type of person and tend to lean towards my first impulse... The Croation Center is the only place I looked at, but I love it and I know it will be beautiful...

Tears

It's very hard for me to be up here away from my family and friends... Especially when I see that their lives are still full even without me... It makes me feel so very empty... I have so many pipe dreams in my head that I lose track of reality... I can't even go onto myspace without crying... When will my life feel full again? When I'm married? When I finally meet some people that can put up with me and have time to hang out? I miss my roomie Dani like a crazy person... By the way things sound, she's planning a wedding too, for May '07... Hope you'll still have time for mine my Dano... I feel so silly and insignificant right now, but why? I should be happy, but there's this big chunk missing from inside... I hope I figure it out soon because I'm pretty miserable right now...

My Soulmate...

So I haven't really said anything about the man I'm about to marry... Toby and I met in the summer of 2000 at a camp called Quaker Meadow... After thet we kept in touch via IMs and long distance phone calls (ask his mother, she'll tellyou about the bills LoL)... I got to see him about once a year over 4th of July weekend when I would beg my dad to bring me up here "to see family and friends"... I would make sure that a visit to his church was included in my trip... I also knew a lot of the other kids from his church... Grace and I always had this kooky sort of friendship :)... Toby and I really started talking again last May (2005) as we were both coming out of rough relationships... In helping each other through them we realized again how much we had in common and that little spark ignited in us again (wow that's sappy)... He came down to visit me in June... The week was amazing... I got to show him all of the places I had told him about, introduce him to my friends, and take him to the beach... Our first kiss was in the Pacific ocean (caught on camera papperazzi style by Dani :P)... Very romantic... When he left I missed him like crazy... Saw him again over 4th of July weekend and really wanted to stay in Sacramento... Went back home and some bad stuff happened... I knew I should get away from it all and the only place I felt at home was Sacramento... God worked it all out and everything seemed to all just fall into place... Grace's parents offered me a place to stay (unbeknown to Grace... but she didn't mind, she's used to her parents doing kooky stuff like this)... and I got a job right away because my cousin's girlfriend (now fiance) Anna was quitting, at Debbie Meyer Swim School teaching private swimming lessons... Which is where I am working again this summer after a short bout at Starbucks between... Anyway... I digress - Toby and I are the yin to each others yang... I've never met a man who loved me for all the spazziness that is me... Until now... (Now don't go expecting any more lovey dovey sappy posts from me, cuz that's just not my style :P)...

Friends in new places...

So I've been avoiding my apartment like the plague... Number one because I don't like to be alone, number two my roommate drives me nuts, and number three because I don't know anyone that lives around there so I'm never in the area... but Katie just told me that one of her best friends lives in the same complex! With that and with Simon (Toby's brother) coming home, something tells me I'm going to be spending a lot more time closer to home... Katie's awesome - one of the few people I've actually related to since moving up here... She and her friend are planing said friends wedding and I might actually be excited now about planning mine! I mean, it's not that I haven't been excited, cuz I have, I just get excite in small bursts. My parents came up the week before Easter and we set the date for August 2007... It's sooooo far away - I just want to be married and spend my life with the man I love, but Mom wants everyone to be able to come and since we're "way up here in Sacramento" (I'm from LA) I have to leave at least a year for travel plans to be made. Since Toby went out last night I had some time to get back in touch with some people... Myspace is good for that but it can be really depressing! It makes me see all of my friends at home and how their lives are just fine without me... I miss them a lot... For the longest time I was having a pity party about not making friends up here... But now I see that I have... Thanks Katie and Grace... And I think I might see Ashley this week or next FINALLY! She's lived here almost as long as I have but has been keeping to herself.... It should be fun, I always like to catch up with the Chinch... I miss my Dano gurl... I wish she could move up here and go to Sac State with me... It's much more affordable than APU... But ::Singing:: "You can't always get what you want"... Once I get over this bronchitis I should be much more into everything... But right now it's all just kinda Blah...

Wedding Plans?!?!?

So just a question... AmI the only crazy girl out there who would rather play WoW then plan her wedding??? My soon to be mother-in-law is sitting in the room on the other computer showing me all of these god awful gaudy wedding dresses saying "This would look great with your tan complexion" or "How bout this, the embroidery is so pretty!" Barf! Let me pick my own damn dress in my own damn time! I want to go level my Shaman! LoL... "You could spend your whole lifetime looking at dresses!" Let's not PLEASE! If she's in here much longer I may not have a mother-in-law to bug me the rest of my life! Lord... No more!